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Friday, August 31, 2012
The Rules For... 'One Lovely Blog' Award...
The Rules For...... ' One Lovely Blog' Award...
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
1) I need to thank the person who nominated me......
Thank-you very much, Yaz Rooney, for nominating me for this award. It means alot to me.
2) I need to share 7 things about myself that you still may not know.......
1... I love animals, I'm a 'dog' person, I don't like people mistreating dogs, animals... I say prayers when I see animals on the road that have been hit by cars... this is my prayer: 'I pray that you didn't suffer little one, in Jesus' name'... my heart is touched each time and in my mind I think: 'I'm so sorry you had to die'....
I hope people who are cruel to animals... get the same punishment 'back to them'. I hope the same with people who hurt, kill, harm people... I feel when someone knows 'they will have to feel the very exact thing' that they could do to another living being... they would decide to love, care instead.
2... I believe in good, I believe in miracles, I believe in forgiving, letting go... I'm amazed at how I've forgiven such 'bad' things done to me by others in my life. I feel I had to in order to go on to live, so I can live with myself. Truthfully... I don't hate anyone though I carry alot of pain inside..... that's okay... I know pain well... I'm strong enough now... I've been taught well.
I've always had to fight 'hate' in my heart... in my family we were taught that early in life... hate, anger, distrust. If you could see my mind you would see 'scuffles' ... me battling to not 'be like that'... I have so much love in my heart, caring.
3... I'm not perfect at all, I wish I had never done anything wrong in my life, I'm old enough to wish this now... I can look back now... I wish I had never made mistakes, or have looked 'bad' to others as I learned my life's lessons.
I would like to be able to say this to you.... 'I am so perfect, my life has been all I wanted it to be, you'll be glad to know I'm somebody very special, wonderful, famous and life will be good 'if' you know me'. Guess what? I'm none of that at all... I just try to do my best and go on.... I fall down, I crawl to get back up... I just don't anyone to think 'I'm anymore ...than I am'. I'm nobody... but, I am in my world.
I don't try to fool people into thinking I'm more than what I am... it hurts me for someone to be disappointed in me. So, if you like me from the beginning... it's hopefully 'me'... you really like. I don't apologize being 'me'... I used to feel my existence had to be apologized for as a young child.... I don't apologize at all no matter what someone thinks of me... now.
I can only go forward, doing the best from all. I am a good person, with a big heart. I'm sorry in my mind for ever making anybody feel bad, hurt because of my words, actions. I know pain well, I don't like to inflict it on anyone. I've learned that sometimes ... we 'do' have to hurt others to... put them into their place, out of your life. Sometimes ...we have to do/say things we don't want to. Hopefully I make the right decision.
4... I have in mind to write a horror story ... unlike any I've ever read. I don't want anyone to ever think I am like the main character though.... I have felt like that at times. I will give a hint... 'an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth... you are going to get 'exactly' what you gave in life'...... I would like to write a scary book like what I've always wanted to read... :)))
I would never do the things I will make my main character in my story.... do.
Truthfully... my main character is a very good person.... sometimes though... we need 'good people who can be bad enough' to protect in life...... sometimes... I've really thought only some of the things I'll write... I know when I let my imagination go.... anything goes..... I will be 'living it' as I write. The main character's name is ... Victoria.
5... I can't just write seven things about me in brief sentences... I am so much more! :))) I really tried, but... I feel I have to tell more!
6... I wish I were rich... yes, I know we all do for various reasons. I'll state my reasons anyway. I would be like the 'Secret Millionaire'... in real life as I lived my happy life... my ears would be always 'listening'.
You know... like in a line at the supermarket, bank, anywhere you can 'overhear' conversations.... I hear such sad things sometimes. If I were rich, I would make it a point without anyone knowing it was me... to find out where certain people lived and I would make dreams come true for them... sometimes the most simple things in life mean the world to others, myself... I would do them, expecting nothing in return.
Truthfully in real life... both Skip and I have done that when we traveled, in our life when we had extra money. We expect nothing in return... our reward was in our hearts... it's unlike any other feeling one has ever experienced... I love that feeling.
I want to give... I would love to be rich so, I can do what I love best... give to make people who really need things... happy.
I wouldn't forget people who don't like me... I'm sorry they don't... but, I would make life better for them, also. I wouldn't let anyone take advantage of me... because all would be done in a quiet, private way... and no one ...would have to know it was 'me' that ... made such things, happiness possible for them!
I wish I was rich... I remember well... how that feeling feels in my heart when doing something for others... that sometimes it really does take money to make happen.
That old saying about 'money is the root of all evil'... I realize that is true... but, truthfully in 'my world'... it also, makes life easier, better not only for me... but, for others around me when I have alot.
Wouldn't it be nice if everyone 'spread out from themselves' when they have alot by giving? That way if you could see a picture of it in your mind... you would see many lives affected in positive ways.
Imagine a house in the middle where you and your loved ones live.... imagine a circle that 'spreads out from your house', the more you give..the more that circle grows bigger... now, imagine seeing 'lots of houses'.... and the huge, wonderful circles spreading out from them!
Can you see if everyone felt like I do... how 'everyone's lives' would benefit from all of us being in the world?
Doesn't it seem like the circles would begin overlapping each other leaving no one out... because as they are helped... they begin also, helping... others?
7... By now... you all will know that asking me a question will involve more than one sentence from me! When I think of 'one thing'... I can't leave out all the 'other things' your question brings to mind! :))) These are some of the things .... others might still not know about me. Knowing all this now... I really am a good person, though not perfect at all. 'Bad' things in my life only... made me a better person.
3) I need to nominate 15 bloggers...
This is something I will do over time as I learn about doing this...... 'feel' the blogs that touch me deeply.
4) I need to notify the nominees that I have done so....
I will do this when the time comes ......
5) I need to put the logo of the award on my blog...
This is something I hope to get help with as, I don't know how to go about it. I am so honored for Yaz to nominate me for this award... that I'd be proud for it to be on my blog. It means so much to me, and is very special to me.