I Carry My Own Baggage ...
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter
Photo owned by me ... taken in my closet ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
I have been sick for over a week now ... I only have mild discomfort in my lower left side now. It has been excruciating pain all week. I have diverticulitis ... among other things. I'm not knocking it ... the oncologist said I should have died 16 years ago. So, truthfully ... how can I complain?
I can cry, moan and groan because I hurt, and take medicine and all 'that sort of thing' ... but, I never think I can complain. I tell myself this over and over ... 'hellfire, it hurts so bad but ... I'm not complaining'.
Now, I don't tell you about crying if something hurts. I'm not super woman , you know. I don't tell you when I suffer a lot. It doesn't do any good to complain ... and to be truthful ... who gives a damn? Oh, another thing ... what good does it do? Does it make the pain any less? No. Why should I mess your day up?
You see people who can't wait to make you sorry for them. Woe is me ... feel sorry for me. I'm not going to make anyone feel sorry for me. I've suffered in one way or other most all my life ... I'd rather make someone not like me enough to keep them from being close enough to see me hurting. I will deal with my own pain. You won't ever have to.
That's not saying I don't truly appreciate people caring. It means so much. I mean it really touches me if I mention I'm not up to par ... and someone cares. I'm amazed ... they don't have to do that. I never take anything for granted.
Don't expect me to go on and on about 'oh poor me, I was hurting so bad' ... I'm not. I'm too-ready to get past it so, I can think, do other things.
It feels good to feel good once again. You don't have to know how much I have suffered. I can carry my own baggage. :)
Note by this Author: I am so glad to almost be well ... it has been hell :) Photos/how I really feel owned, written by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.
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