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Friday, January 20, 2012

WHO IS GOING TO GET MY PHOTOS WHEN I DIE?


WHO IS GOING TO GET MY PHOTOS WHEN I DIE?

BY GLORIA FAYE BROWN BATES

Oh my God! Who is going to get my pictures! My stomach feels sick as the realization sets in... there's no one to take my photos when I die.

I had to come sit down here at my computer and write this out... I can't just talk about it... verbally. I can only write what I feel at this moment.

I was in the bathroom looking in my mirror. Today... my mirror 'sort of likes me'. I'll explain... I feel alot like my old self today, my eyes have some sparkle in them, my hair 'sort of' looks half-way decent, my clothes look 'happy'.

I know I sound probably 'silly' to you... that's okay. I know what I mean... today, I've been sad off and on, but... I could look in my mirror that has judged me as 'just a mess' for so long... today, I could just 'see me'.... just a little bit... and I smiled back at 'me'!!!

Wow! You can't imagine what a nice feeling that was. I took my camera phone from its case and decided to capture this 'big' moment!

I took several photos when all of a sudden... I thought of Tommy... then, a question popped up in my mind, my stomach felt sick all of a sudden.

Who will get photos of me if I die? Tommy was supposed to get all of my photos. He isn't here to get them anymore, he isn't here to get those things I always meant for him.

I don't have other children.. Tommy was my only child. I have things I always meant for ... Tommy.
His children are kept from me, bonds have been broken. How hurt Tommy would be if he knew. I'm old enough to know life is like that.. and I'm strong enough to go on... it still hurts.

I'm still left sitting here with the question... who is going to get my photos when I die?

Skip will, that's who. I'm missing Tommy very much today... the feeling in my stomach is subsiding just a little now..... isn't it strange how things like that happen?

I hadn't thought of this.. until now.

:))) Everything will be alright... thank-you for listening.
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2 comments:

  1. AnonymousJanuary 20, 2012 at 9:21 PM

    I know you don't get to see your grandchildren but if they are of age, they can get your pictures if you want them to. If not, you should write down who you want to get what. Skip should know if you want any particular person to get any particular thing. If you don't want to do that, just let Skip decide what to do with your things. If you should outlive Skip, write down what you want done with everything. I won't even charge you for this information! Love, Ms. Nancy

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  2. AnonymousJanuary 21, 2012 at 12:49 AM

    I think you should make arrangements for your grandchildren to get them when their ready. It would be many years, maybe when there in their 20's or when they have children of their own. They will what to know where they came from and what their beautiful father and Granny were like. It will take time but I think they will come back to you like they should be allowed. ♥ Nannie Gee

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