By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter
Well ... I did something I never thought I would do. I can't believe I'm not upset yet ... about it. So, that means I won't be getting upset. I have burned a bridge behind me, one that I can't go back on.
I got rid of almost all my clothes this weekend. So many still had price tags on them, so many never worn ... some worn only a few times. Why?
Because my weight has been like a yo-yo ... up and down constantly. I gain it, I lose it ... I gain it. I am an expert on ... gaining weight. I used to lose it easily ... the older one gets, it seems to get harder to lose.
I am keeping my mind on my photos when I was little ... it felt so wonderful. I look forward! :)
I've lost 20 lbs ... I am fighting to keep them off. I want to go on to lose this excess weight. It really feels good to feel thinner ... I want to go back to a size 9-10, and I will succeed. My mind is set on it. I mean to lose it ... so, it will happen.
I've never-ever had so few clothes, shoes! My closet is completely empty, excepting the shelves have some pretty shoes lined up. My handbags, scarves, and such are hanging pretty. I have a few dressy clothes hanging up. They will have to do until I've dropped a significant amount of weight ... only then, will I allow myself to get anything new.
I did begin to panic one time, but stopped. I bet you wondered what I did with all those nice clothes. You wouldn't believe me if I told you. I'll tell you, anyway.
I took them to a flea market ... anyone that wanted to buy them I told them I was selling each blouse, pants for $2.00 each. No one could believe it .... a lot of my clothes were name-brand. Many had tags hanging on them where I'd gained weight ... never got to wear them!
I am looking forward to being this little again ... my photos of being small inspire me! :)
I still had a 'ton' of clothes when it came time to leave, plus a beautiful winter coat that Skip got for me just before Tommy died. I never wore it much, he gave $150.00 for it.
Well, earlier a woman came and bought a lot of things from me. I saw her, called her over. Do you know what I did? Yes, you are right? That's like me to do that!
I gave her all those beautiful clothes, and not only that! I gave her a very tall box of ... beautiful shoes, in all styles, and colors.
Was she happy? Yes! Was I happy? When I saw her expression ... yes! I know I would love to be given such nice things! Wouldn't that be fun, amazing all at the same time? I was excited for her! :) Oh ... I gave her that beautiful coat, too! I was so happy because I had made her happy. I know it sounds strange ... I am like that.
I can't wait to lose this weight! I look very forward to taking photos with 'too big' clothes! :)
When I can afford to, and have lost a significant amount of weight ... I will replace my clothes. Am I panicking? I'm amazed ... no, I'm not.
Now ... this is why I did it. I have decided that I'm not living the rest of my life overweight. I love being small too much to ruin the rest of my life with excess weight. I ... lost myself ... when my only child, my son Tommy, died. I am finding ... me ... again. I don't even want to be 'pleasingly plump'.
I mean not to be 'fat' anymore. I can't turn back now ... I have no more 'fat clothes' to run to ... and I can't afford to buy big clothes again! :)
I've burned a major bridge behind me ... there's no turning back.
Note by this Author:
This is very true, and just happened. I'm not panicking over not having many clothes! I've never had so few ... not only that ... I would have to gain weight to wear them! I've come too far to do that.
I'm going to be small again ... I'm excited. Even if I didn't have many clothes ever again, I'd be happy to be slender. :)
Photos of me are owned by me ... story written, owned by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
Like you, I'm a lot heavier than I was when I was 20/30/40 ... and it seems to be true that losing weight is harder when people get older. Women especially. I too would love to be slender again. I just bought myself a rowing machine - maybe that will help. I'm in the process of eliminating things from my diet again. My favorite comfort foods like cheese and bread and tortillas. I know I'll lose weight if I can keep away from those products. I also tried the Fat Flush Soup Diet for half a week recently and lost 4 pounds... I want to do that again... only stay on it for 3 weeks straight. Anyhow, I feel for you... totally understand the problem. I just had my 63rd birthday. Congrats on selling and giving away clothes from your past. Now you have room for new things to come to you... things you can use.
ReplyDeleteThank you very much for your comment, and your words. I hope you'll come back to visit. Gloria
DeleteI am so proud of you!!! You have will power I don't have right now. Too much going on in my life and family. I do know also that certain medicines will make a person gain weight. I think 2 of my medicines are in that category. You have inspired me to at least try to lose some weight. Congratulations!! Love, Ms. Nancy
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