I Wonder ... by Gloria Faye Brown Bates 9-23-2022

 I Wonder ... by Gloria Faye Brown Bates (9-23-2022)

I wonder if someone who hurts us deeply when living can see, hear us when we speak of the pain? I wonder if they regret their actions, inactions?

I wonder if someone who hurts us deeply when living can see, hear us when we speak of the pain? I wonder if they regret their actions,  inactions?

I wonder if the someone tries to atone from the other side? I know I would try my best to make amends. 

I wonder if they know they are forgiven? I wonder if it even matters? I wonder if we are left with such thoughts ... do they have thoughts on the other side?

Sometimes just wondering can make one's mind tired ... enough so other thoughts take up that space. Then, perhaps for months, years ... one doesn't wonder anymore.

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We all have thoughts time to time such as this. We have a family member who has hurt us never caring while living. If they do care they never let you know.

Sometimes children come from broken homes ... no matter how they try to leave the garbage in the past some pieces manage to follow them through life. That in return makes one wonder time to time.

I speak of my father ... I can remember one time he said, "I love you". For a time those words made my Heart sing until one day the music stopped. He never said those words again to me. He didn't want conflict with his wife. Growing up I understood. Growing up ... I forgave. Growing up the more I forgave ... the more peace I had in my Heart.

We never know what a person goes through. I understand so, so, so, so, so, so-oooooooooooo 🙂🙃🙂 much now. It took being an adult many years to see. It has taken years for me to write the sad and not feel the pain.

There is one exception... when it comes to my child, Tommy. That is a forever pain ... the good thing is I can live with that pain whereas before ... I didn't think I could ... it was so much bigger than I.

Tonight it seems I am in a deep-thinking mood. Now, this is in the past to maybe think about again in a year or two. Then again ... I may not ever think about it again.🙂🙃🙂❤💛  Photos are of me as a child, owned by me.