Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/aka GG ... 2018
This year we were unexpectedly told we needed to move just as our fall turned into winter. I won't go into details but, one can imagine how devastating that can be when one's finances aren't the greatest, one's health isn't at its best ... and you are older.
The owner said he was financially strapped ... we understand well what that means. We respect, understand his wishes ... he wants to sell his house, property.
This year is the first year we didn't put up a Christmas tree ... do anything special. We are still coping with the knowledge we need to move as soon as we can ... and don't want to cause the owner any distress.
Everything is okay ... we will be fine. Life can, will get okay in unexpected ways when one feels all is hopeless. We've felt hopeless, even embarrassed at being older and really sort of at the mercy of the world.
At one time we had all in order to grow older with insurances, money. The one thing we never expected was we both begin having life-threatening illnesses ... medical issues that come with them until the day we die. Life can be that way.
We don't sit, dwell on them ... to do that is to live in a world with blinders on. We face it with our eyes wide open ... cope with it as Life comes at us. A 'do it or die' attitude. We have to live until we die.
Though instead of a Christmas tree this year we have
moving boxes in its place ... we are going to be okay. At first it felt awful ... and both Skip and I fell into a depression ... it didn't take long to get our positive attitudes back.
We've listened to lies told ... pretended not to know. Why would we do otherwise? Everyone has a reason to do the things they do ... sometimes the way we go about it ... destroy, hurt worse than ... simply telling the truth.
Sadly ... when there's a friendship involved ... lies destroy something special that can't ever be gotten back. Why lie when one can simply go to another ... sit, tell the truth from their heart ... to find out if his friends understand? Take it from there? At least ... the right thing was done.
I think in this situation ... this is what hurt the most. The weaving of lies, stories that eventually came back later to unravel ... leaving the truth exposed. Some people have a way of telling on themselves and can't help it.
All of this is unimportant now. Not only is the truth exposed ... so is the status of the friendship.
What to do but, go on with your life ... accept what it is ... you can't change it, why would you? If you did, it'd never be the same.
What to do? Smile ... pretend ... smile ... pretend all is okay. Pick the pieces of your life up again ... go on. Doing otherwise only creates more negative ... no one wants that.
Once you go on with your life ... remember that person who still wants that 'close friendship' because they 'need you to still do their things for them' ... says 'we're always going to be friends'.
Just remember how they did you at the time of year when everyone digs in for the wintertime to be safe, cozy until Spring. Remember that if they can have a heart to do that ... they really aren't your friend. They only need the things you do for them ... they can't do for themselves.
I have fought against harboring anger, hate through time since a little girl. I'm afraid I had to work very hard to cope with this latest. If I told you exactly why ... you'd understand.
I won't at the risk of tearing someone down, making them look bad when really ... they aren't a bad person but ... under the influence of someone who claims to love them when the money is good. Who abandons when no money is coming in.
A deceptive person who uses others ... can literally control someone's life especially when made to think they can't ever find another person for themselves. They accept what they can get.
Oh, the lies a deceptive person tells ... believed by someone who only wants that someone special to believe in, love them. Who believes in the most outrageous lies because they aren't intelligent to know better. Life can be cruel ... it's very, very cruel in this situation.
It's sad to watch such and know what's happening and can't change it. The power of a woman who knows how to use it on a person who desperately wants a woman ... is formidable. Who can't find another woman because he's told he can't. Who believes every word that comes out of lying lips.
This is where I stop. We all have to walk the roads in our Life ... no one else can do it for us. I've walked many in my own Life ... even Skip couldn't walk them for me.
Even if we wish, know and want to protect others from bad things ... we can't. They have to walk on their own roads and they'll walk in circles if while walking they don't learn their Life lessons.
This person has walked in circles for years ... wasted years. It's his road to travel ... travel he will in hopes eyes will open one day. I don't see that happening. It hurts me to see that even knowing all this ... the person continues on saying 'they know, they're not stupid'.
I can only say prayers that he can walk a safe trip through the rest of his life on his road. We truly cared ... but, it's time we look ahead. We can be there if needed ... as we've been asked. No hard feelings ... though on my part ... with my imperfect self ... I had to cope hard with them. I'm okay now. Everything is going to be alright.
Christmas ... is inside us ... not the gifts ... though yes, they are fun to get, open. Colorful, happy, exciting to get the things we want, wish for. It is for everyone. I know that.
For me, it has been years now ... I look back to Tommy's death 8 years ago ... I quit wishing for gifts. Gifts at Christmas became unimportant to me. Love, family, our Pets ... are most important.
They are there when no one else is ... through all the good, bad times. We are fortunate to have our loved ones here.
Christmas is ... Us, Life ... Love, Caring, Empathy, Compassion, Loyalty, Honesty ... those are the greatest gifts of all. These gifts can't be wrapped in a present ... and only actions can show them.
Merry Christmas to everyone. We may have packing boxes in place of a Christmas tree ... that's okay. We are getting ready to embark on another journey in Life ... not knowing what to expect.
Remember how exciting that would be as younger people? Well, we are going to look at this in that way. We are ready to get on a new road to travel ... one thing about it ... it brings new life to us as older adults. We need it ... excitement, fun :) <3
That'll help us to stay youthful longer. We don't know what to expect but, we welcome 2019 with open arms. This is a chapter of our life that will soon end in 2018.
Oh ... one more thing I find I do as each New Year comes in at midnight ... is take note of us who get to go into the next year now. I never did that before. Strange, isn't it? I pray for everyone to go into 2019.
Written by Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/aka GG. Photos owned by Me, also.
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