Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Everything Is Going To Be Alright... It Has To Be

Everything Is Going To Be Alright... It Has To Be
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

Is that a lump in her throat, a tear in her eye
Pressure builds in her chest, sad thoughts in her mind
The question 'why?' looms in her mind, she shakes her head
There's no need to ask... no way possible for it to be answered

No way in 'this world'... no one knows, don't ask anyone
Anything... they are only human... some think they know
Don't ever ask 'why?'... You aren't going to get an answer
Why do people die after living... why?

So much goes into living, why in the world does someone die
After investing so much in trying to live, love, be full of life
Why, after becoming loved by others who treasure them
With their very heart, who make them a part of their world?

So, why?  I am going to ask 'why?' just for a moment
Just for the h____ of it... because for the moment I feel anger
I'll say 'why? why? why? why? why?' ... all I want to
I will... ask 'why?'  I'm mad, I don't want my son to be gone

He is gone, damn it... yes, I said that again;  I said 'damn'
Today, I said it a lot to myself... I don't care what anyone thinks
My heart hurts, I don't even care 'what I think'...
Tommy's gone, I miss him, my son is ... dead

I am writing the pain ... it travels from my heart to my fingertips
As they press each character to form a word
Pain... that makes tears in my eyes, makes it hard to breath
Through my nose... pressure in my chest... 'why?'

I can answer the 'why' to that... because it damn well hurts
Grief is tearing at my heart tonight... it doesn't hurt good
It hurts so bad... sh-hhhhhhh, don't say anything at all to me
You don't need to... this is going to happen... 'why?'

Because my son is gone... I loved him very, very much
Because today ... I thought of him a lot, missed him
Because... I'm not ever going to see him again...
Some things really are impossible... he can't come back at all

Don't ever say 'nothing is impossible'
I've heard it all my life, I used to believe that
It's impossible for Tommy to come back...
Though he can't, and my heart hurts... everything is going to be alright... it has to be


  1. We will see Tommy when we get to heaven. No we won't see him in this world again. We just have to look forward to going to heaven and seeing all of our loved ones. I can only think that God needed another angel and He chose Tommy! Tommy truly was a good man. He was always nice to me no matter what was going with him in his life. He was just a kind and caring person. More people should have been like Tommy! Love, Ms. Nancy

    1. Thank-you, Ms Nancy. I'm glad you had a chance to know him. Love, Gloria