I Didn't Stay Down ... Long This Time
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee ... December 2014 ...
This weekend, I have been creating ... little Christmas trees, and an angel. The angel was created without me planning to create it. I love it!
It gave me the chance to 'save' a pretty piece (brooch), use it at the same time. Look at the angel head ... don't you think her head was worth saving?
For those who don't see the photos ... just come to my blog where all my photos are (or to Facebook.com/grannygee ) ... you can see my photos.
Skip loved my Christmas tree ... so, that made me happy I made it. I couldn't believe I could actually sit down long enough to create, be artistic. It wasn't easy at all to do such through the past four years.
I'm thinking ... I'm so much happier creating, making something colorful, happy, even beautiful!
This Christmas is the first time since Tommy has been gone. Who knew? I didn't know I would ever want to paint, draw, create again.
Writing ... writing has been the life boat I have been riding these four years ... I'm afraid to think what would have been if I couldn't have been writing. It was my only way to make the pain flow out of me ... like a stormy river. Sometimes, the waters were calm ... at an moment ... all hell would break open.
Grief is like that. One minute you think you are alright ... and you've got it licked ... the next thing you find yourself ... on the ground ... once again.
I just experienced it 'once again' ... last Sunday, in the most unexpected way. (come to my blog at http://happycolorsandgrannygee.blogspot.com to read what I am talking about ... The End of Granny Gee).
All I can say 'now' ... is ... I have picked my ass up off the ground for the 'millionth' time ... pants are dusted off ... I'm living life again ... and I'm feeling happiness inside ... once again. I didn't stay down long, this time.
Photo/Story both owned by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
Colors As I Go
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