By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter
Well ... I did something I never thought I would do. I can't believe I'm not upset yet ... about it. So, that means I won't be getting upset. I have burned a bridge behind me, one that I can't go back on.
I got rid of almost all my clothes this weekend. So many still had price tags on them, so many never worn ... some worn only a few times. Why?
Because my weight has been like a yo-yo ... up and down constantly. I gain it, I lose it ... I gain it. I am an expert on ... gaining weight. I used to lose it easily ... the older one gets, it seems to get harder to lose.
I am keeping my mind on my photos when I was little ... it felt so wonderful. I look forward! :)
I've lost 20 lbs ... I am fighting to keep them off. I want to go on to lose this excess weight. It really feels good to feel thinner ... I want to go back to a size 9-10, and I will succeed. My mind is set on it. I mean to lose it ... so, it will happen.
I've never-ever had so few clothes, shoes! My closet is completely empty, excepting the shelves have some pretty shoes lined up. My handbags, scarves, and such are hanging pretty. I have a few dressy clothes hanging up. They will have to do until I've dropped a significant amount of weight ... only then, will I allow myself to get anything new.
I did begin to panic one time, but stopped. I bet you wondered what I did with all those nice clothes. You wouldn't believe me if I told you. I'll tell you, anyway.
I took them to a flea market ... anyone that wanted to buy them I told them I was selling each blouse, pants for $2.00 each. No one could believe it .... a lot of my clothes were name-brand. Many had tags hanging on them where I'd gained weight ... never got to wear them!
I am looking forward to being this little again ... my photos of being small inspire me! :)
I still had a 'ton' of clothes when it came time to leave, plus a beautiful winter coat that Skip got for me just before Tommy died. I never wore it much, he gave $150.00 for it.
Well, earlier a woman came and bought a lot of things from me. I saw her, called her over. Do you know what I did? Yes, you are right? That's like me to do that!
I gave her all those beautiful clothes, and not only that! I gave her a very tall box of ... beautiful shoes, in all styles, and colors.
Was she happy? Yes! Was I happy? When I saw her expression ... yes! I know I would love to be given such nice things! Wouldn't that be fun, amazing all at the same time? I was excited for her! :) Oh ... I gave her that beautiful coat, too! I was so happy because I had made her happy. I know it sounds strange ... I am like that.
I can't wait to lose this weight! I look very forward to taking photos with 'too big' clothes! :)
When I can afford to, and have lost a significant amount of weight ... I will replace my clothes. Am I panicking? I'm amazed ... no, I'm not.
Now ... this is why I did it. I have decided that I'm not living the rest of my life overweight. I love being small too much to ruin the rest of my life with excess weight. I ... lost myself ... when my only child, my son Tommy, died. I am finding ... me ... again. I don't even want to be 'pleasingly plump'.
I mean not to be 'fat' anymore. I can't turn back now ... I have no more 'fat clothes' to run to ... and I can't afford to buy big clothes again! :)
I've burned a major bridge behind me ... there's no turning back.
Note by this Author:
This is very true, and just happened. I'm not panicking over not having many clothes! I've never had so few ... not only that ... I would have to gain weight to wear them! I've come too far to do that.
I'm going to be small again ... I'm excited. Even if I didn't have many clothes ever again, I'd be happy to be slender. :)
Photos of me are owned by me ... story written, owned by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee