I've found 'ME' in the mirror again after 6 years of being a grieving mother ... I think Tommy is smiling from above just like the sunshine. By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.
I recognize the woman in the photos above ... that's ME! I am so happy to see me once again. I never thought I would. I have taken the pieces left of a grieving mother ... put them together again ... and ... here I am :) Just like ... Humpty Dumpty ... all the pieces are put together again. Now ... I just need to polish me up here, there.
Of course, I am older ... my skin isn't as young as it used to be. My face shows lines, age. I have weathered many, many storms most people never experience in several lifetimes. I have been toppled over by the high winds of Life ... knocked down by the bolts of pure shock over and over ... my tears have been more than an ocean-full.
When you think of 'Me' ... see 'Me' ... remember when you look at me ... I'm all the pieces you see put back together again. Think of a Redwood Tree ... beaten, whipped by all the past storms ... I am what is left standing with all my invisible battle scars. I managed to stand through all the hellacious storms that have come my way.
I am like a Redwood Tree ... I'm still standing. If you just knew ... you would never believe what this 'tree' has survived. You would be utterly amazed. When I look back to the little child I was at one time until now ... it's a wonder I lived with the things inflicted upon me ... little girl have died never getting to live with their secrets. I am fortunate.
So when you look at me ... see my life battle scars ... the years gone by on my face ... my body ... just know this is all I've got left now ... and I'm doing the best I can to pick up all my pieces ... put me back together again. It doesn't matter if no one else likes how I look now ... what does matter is I can accept me now ... I can recognize the person I was before I was beaten down to nothing from the storm of grief I survived.
I'm so happy with me today ... I'm so happy to see ME in my mirror again.
Note by this Author:
One of the most awful things in life is looking in the mirror and ... seeing a stranger. It's really scary ... to live inside of a stranger you don't know looking back at you. Does that sound strange?
Just think how it would feel. I have looked for so long ... now ... I have found Me. I'm older and not as pretty, youthful as I once was ... I don't care ... I'll take what's left now :)
Photos/true story owned/written by Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.