Monday, October 20, 2014

Feet On The Wall ...

 Feet On The Wall ...
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

This little girl learned to be a mean little girl sometimes, in the process of learning how to survive Hell.  The photo is of me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/ aka Granny Gee  &grannygee

Photo is of my wonderful Grandma Alma & George ... I loved them with my Heart.  George was blind, Grandma Alma was paralyzed on one side of her body.
All photos are owned by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

I cried as the pain coursed through my arm. Damn it! That hurt! Don't do that again, I cried!

My Grandma Alma told me to take my feet off the wall, put them under the bedcover. Right now!

I had learned to be a mean, little girl ... not all the time ... but, when pain happened ... it made me feel angry. I didn't take them down right away.

Her one good hand reached for my arm again. She pinched me good! I took my feet off the wall, then.

I began crying. That hurt, Grandma. My feet had gotten warm under the covers, and I stuck them out to cool. The wall looked inviting ... the next thing I knew, they were on that wall!

George and Grandma Alma had two full-size beds in the bedroom. They slept in their own bed. I lived there for a time, had to sleep in Grandma Alma's bed. I slept on the side near the wall.

Grandma Alma had made me put my feet under the cover ... now, my feet wouldn't be happy until they were on that wall, again. How can 'old' people know everything, I wondered. Everytime my feet neared the edge of the bedcover, Grandma Alma seemed to know it. Damn!

Well, something happened that haunts me to this day. I could cry thinking about it ... if I let myself.

Several nights later, my feet decided they had a mind of their own. They took themselves out from under the bedcovers, put themselves on that wall. My toes wiggled, feeling so good because the wall was cool. I could fall asleep like that!

Get your feet off the wall, Faye! Grandma Alma had raised her voice to me. Not only that, she pinched me hard! I began crying ... and felt mad at my Grandma Alma. I reached back, pinched her on her arm ... hard!

Ouch! Faye, that hurts! I could hear the pain in her voice. I was so sorry instantly for hurting my Grandma Alma. I'm sorry, Grandma, I'm so sorry.

Afterwards, I couldn't keep it off my little girl mind. I had hurt my Grandma. I could swear she almost cried. It broke my Heart.

Through time, I've always thought about it ... especially, when my feet can reach a wall while I'm in bed. Not long ago, I did that very thing ... I put both bare feet on the wall!

I instantly felt bad ... the memory of pinching my Grandma Alma's arm popped up in my mind. I took my feet off the wall.

I have done this over the years as an adult, always wondering why I couldn't put my feet on the wall. Being an adult, it's no fun to do it now. :) Maybe the memory of pinching my poor Grandma Alma ... clouds doing it. Also, maybe 'it's not nice' to put my feet on the wall! :)

Oh, sometimes ... I like to do something not nice! I know I'll do it again sometime in my life ... I just have to. It's one of my secrets. :)

If you ever do it ... make sure your feet are very clean. When you put them on the wall ... only let them rest in one place. You'll feel the coolness on the bottom of your feet, and your wiggly toes! :)

Maybe if ... I'd never been told not to do it ... I would have never ... done it again! So, I know I will have my ... feet on the wall ... again in the future.


Photos/my true story are owned by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee &grannygee

Note: Sometimes, we all have little, silly things we like to do just for the sake of doing them. Sometimes ... we don't know 'why' we do them ... unless maybe trying to provoke a memory.

1 comment:

  1. I remember your Grandma Alma. She only wanted what was best for you. She did love you! Wonder why grown ups know what is best for us? Love, Ms. Nancy