By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
I've been thinking a lot about my son, Tommy, lately. Do you know ... I really, really, really miss him. I tell Skip that I miss him so much ... Skip does, too. Skip and Tommy were best friends, and very close.
I will tell you about my grief now, after four years. Tommy died on May 29, 2010.
I wish I could tell you how in the world ... I ... came to accept his death. Looking back ... I see such darkness. I came from that darkness after living in it almost three years. This past year ... the fourth year ... something changed inside me.
Once that happened ... I've been able to cope with the loss of Tommy. I don't cry like I did. Inside ... I still cry ... but, it's not like 'before'. I'm going to be alright, now. This happened this past year.
I think writing, and writing so much ... helped me. In fact, I know it did. I don't remember all I've written ... but, I can look back at anytime, to see.
What in the world would I have done if ... I had no outlet?
Photo/Story Credit belongs to me, Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka & grannygee. My grief today ... after four years. I'm going to be alright, now. It doesn't mean the pain has gone away ... it means ... I'm going to be alright.
So sorry for your loss and I'm glad writing has helped to heal you.
ReplyDeleteBy sharing your grief and reaching out, you touched so many people who came to genuinely care about you. Probably feeling all that love was what helped you cope with your loss. I think Camie helped you too. I sometimes wonder if spirits in the afterlife know what will bring comfort to those they left behind. Tommy may have sent Camie to you to help you heal while you helped her heal.
ReplyDeleteI understand dear Gloria. Hugs
ReplyDeleteI knew you would be alright. You just had to deal with Tommy's death in your own way and your own time. I do know a couple of people that lost their only child and they came through it. I haven't seen them in a while but I did see them and watch them and they are alright now too. I can't imagine losing a child but I am thinking it must be some kind of bad. I lost my nephew and we were so close. He lived with me for a while (about a year) and we became even closer. I know how long it took me to accept him being gone but like you said, the hurt is still there and probably always will be. We had to deal with our grief in our own way and our own time. I pray that you will have peace with your loss now. Love, Ms. Nancy
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