Friday, February 5, 2016

I've Taken My Apple Out of the Bag Twice ...

I've Taken My Apple Out of the Bag Twice ...
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter

When one tries to be good always
What do they do when they feel anger?
What do they do?

When one tries to never think mean thoughts
What do they do if they think bad of someone
What do they do?

When one is human ... never perfect
What do they do to get rid of anger, bad feelings
When they never let the person they're angry with ... know?

Never wanting to hurt another person
Yet ... it's going to happen sooner ... later
Because to let them know how they made you feel ... you have to tell them

It won't ever go away ... it'll stay right there in your mind
Just as an apple placed into a bag stays ... until taken out
I've taken my apple out of the bag twice in the past several weeks

Twice in several weeks ... I've felt bad ... it began to build inside
Not being one to hold things in ... I felt the need to let each one know
How I felt ... yet, I still feel bad ... I still feel upset

Never wanting to hurt another person ... yet ... I know I have
Unintentionally ... not because they hurt me first ... and they did
Hurt them because ... I expressed how I truly felt ... and I'd do it again

Sorry I hurt them ... not sorry for saying what's on my mind
I'm not perfect ... I should have let things go ... I couldn't
Sometimes ... one can't when it comes to being made to feel bad

I couldn't ... when someone wasted unnecessary words
Words that never need be spoken
Especially not to me ... knowing I'm respectful of everyone

Knowing I'd never ask anything from anyone
I know you've felt the same when someone spoke unnecessary words to you
They knew better ... why would they do it ... anyway?

I'm being crytic ... when I hurt, feel pain
I begin to write as I think ... to make it go away
I woke up sad ... yes, a tiny bit of anger in my Heart

Not wanting it to build up inside ... I opened the dam
Words like water began pouring out
As I sit here ... releasing them from my fingertips

Like a river ... my words flow until I don't see them anymore
They've gone far and wide
Riding the currents, blowing in the wind

Leaving me feeling calm ... whole again
Let the anger go ... let bad feelings go away
It's not the end of the world ... today ... begins a new day

Author's Note:

I'm not perfect ... I do feel anger, pain when I feel someone has hurt me ... whether they do it intentionally or not.

If I don't feel something is right ... I do get upset.  I try not to let anyone know.  I don't like to hurt others ... sometimes, I have ... I do.

To express how I feel ... I do it in the nicest way possible so, as not to hurt ... reality is ... it does hurt.  If I don't do that ... I get physically sick inside if I hold 'bad' feelings in.

As a younger person I would let people hurt me ... never letting them know.  Then ... one, two ... three ... the third time I am going to say something.  The sad thing is when someone never likes you again ... the sad thing is when that happens ... you know they never liked you to begin with.

All I can say is ... life can be like that.  It isn't all smiles, happiness.  I'm not perfect ... I get mad, too.  Just because I try so hard to be good ... doesn't mean I don't become upset sometimes.  Doesn't mean I don't feel bad when I do ... because that's exactly what happens ... I feel bad when I do.

Photo, poem owned ... written by me, Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.

1 comment:

  1. I think we all get upset with someone at one time or another. I found that forgiveness is the best medicine to cure hurt feelings. If I have ever hurt anyone's feelings or made them sad, I hope they will forgive me. I don't like to hurt anyone's feeling either. Love, Ms. Nancy