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Friday, May 27, 2016
I Had Forgotten They Existed ...
Strange how so much life goes on around me ... I didn't see, hear it for focusing on Skip ... for the past 5 months I've lived in fear for him. Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee ... as a younger woman. Sitting and thinking ...............
I have been sitting quietly ... sensing, feeling out my world around me ... by listening, seeing. I can hardly believe all is calm ... when the past 5 months have been in such turmoil.
For the moment, my mind feels at peace. Gracious, what a nice feeling ... I had forgotten how it felt. It's strange when one's life is in turmoil ... they focus only on what's at hand. No time to relax, feel at ease ... only a driving fear. At least ... for me, that's how it's been.
It sure feels good to feel good. I got to do something yesterday I didn't get to think I would do ... play in some garden soil. I added beautiful, black soil to the several potted plants on the porch, and to one big cherry tomato plant I have. It sounds like nothing, I know ... to me, it felt wonderful to stop ... 'smell the roses' so to speak.
My hands were dirty ... my skin warm from the sunshine ... the breeze felt good. My mind was at peace while listening to the birds, the distant drone of an airplane ... someone mowing grass ... I even heard children squeal in laughter. These are happy sounds ... I had forgotten they existed. Isn't that amazing?
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Photo/true story by Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter.
This morning I am sitting ... thinking about how much I have to be grateful for ... I don't think a day goes by without me feeling grateful for all in my life. No matter how bad it got ... good things happened.