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Tuesday, March 8, 2016
New ... Grieving Mother
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter
A new, grieving mother just got on the long, dark road of grief I've traveled since my own child died ... I cared with my Heart. Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
My eyes overflow with tears
Heart overwhelmed with grief
I'm sad as sad can be
I'm a grieving mother who has traveled far
Today I met a new grieving mother
Who has just found herself on this road
Road of grief, pain no one knows
But ... only someone who has lost a child
My Heart pure breaks for her
I looked at her today ... I saw myself
Standing there ... I wanted to weep
Her face lined with pain as she looked
Looked at her child, her beautiful daughter
Laying on silk ... like Sleeping Beauty
My Heart cared more than I could possibly say
I put my arms around her shoulders
I wished to take the pain away
I looked closely in her face
She's in shock now ... she's not begun her travels yet
Along the road of grief, pain ... darkness
I hurt for what she must go through
I met a new grieving mother today
I'm so sorry for the pain she must go through
No one can take it away ...
No more than they can take away her love
For her child, that's why she must grieve
Grief is pure love ... pain for the loss of a loved one
I wanted to wrap my arms around her
Like a mother hen does with her babies
Comfort her until all the pain goes away
No one can do that in reality
We have to walk our own roads in grief
Travel through darkness, raging storms
No one can do it for us ... if they could
I would surely walk for this new grieving mother
To keep her from feeling the pain I know
My Heart is broken ... filled with many tears
Tears and love, caring
For this new grieving mother I saw today
Note from this author:
My Heart pure breaks for the new, grieving mother I saw today ... not only grieving mother ... oh my, the grieving father, also.
I looked in their faces, saw ... felt their pain. I saw the grief etching itself into their faces ... swollen from the tears they have cried. Their eyes were darkened with such grief that makes you want to weep when seeing.
I am a grieving mother ... even after five years. My pain is just as deep as it ever was. From time to time I go through bouts of pure grief ... pure agony in my soul. A mother never gets over losing her child.
Today is my first time seeing a grieving mother who doesn't know what grieving is yet. She is in pure shock of losing her child ... she hasn't begun grieving. I wish I could grieve for her ... because I've already traveled down this road. I wish I could give her comfort ... I can only say I care with my very Heart.
My Heart breaks ... because each day she will have to go pure ... living Hell ... knowing her child's gone ... never coming back. She'll never hear the special sounds her child made when laughing, speaking, doing things, walking. She'll never see her special smile that melts a mother's heart, again. So many ... nevers.
I can only say this has affected me deeply ... I feel it to my very soul. I hurt for this special family I saw today ... grieving mother, grieving father ... grieving children. There's not a thing I can do to take away the awful pain they are going through for a very long time. I would if I could ... my grief has only made me stronger.
Photo, true poem, story owned, written by Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.