Monday, January 18, 2016

Lord, I'm Standing Up Again ...

Lord, I'm Standing Up Again ...
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter

Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

The waves are battering me again trying to break me apart
I'm tossed, thrown on the sea to sink ... only to rise
I tighten up ... another Life's storm comes for me

The wind ... darkness ... all vicious in its might
Try to destroy me ... sink me to the pits of the unknown
I'm afraid ... I pray for help ... in the meantime I don't give up

I hold my ground ... stand up straight ... I focus ahead
My hands brush the sand off my ass from where I fell
Life just threw me down once again

Stay down ... stay down this time, Life roars at me
Hell no!  I try to rise, being pushed down the whole time
Tears flow down my cheeks ... anger, pain soar through my mind, body

I'm not staying down even if I have to crawl
I'm like the redwood tree ... scarred from many battles
I've stood through the years beaten, worn

I'm broken, beaten ... not pretty to look at anymore
Doesn't matter ... all I worry about now
Is to survive ... live until I die

My way has been hard ... never easy
Each road I've taken has lead to pain
In my old age I would love to know peace, comfort

Know how it feels not to suffer physically, have mental pain
Be able to smile and not hide anything ... smile because
For once everything really is alright

Grow old gracefully ... feeling joy in my Heart
Having enough so, I can share
Doing good things for others in need

The wind has been knocked out of me
The love of my life almost died
I almost lost another part of my whole world

Oh God, I cried ... please don't take him away
He's all I have ... my Husband, our two Pups
They make up my whole world

You took my son, my only child
I've never questioned why
I learned to accept I'll never see him again

I never hated you, God
I never cursed you, screamed at you for taking him away
I cried, stayed in darkness ... I just couldn't bear losing my son

You took every member of my family away
All the ones I truly loved ... now, they are gone
All I have left is my whole world

Please let us have many good years
Good years where we can live in peace, not know more pain
Let us experience true happiness ... instead of sadness

Lord, I am standing up once again
Please don't let Life knock me down again
Give me a chance to know peace, happiness while I live

Please let a miracle come into my Life
Let me have a chance to do good things I've wished to do
There are people I want to help, bring some joy into their life

Please give me the chance to experience joy
Joy of being able to have in order to give
Let me be a part of that wonderful feeling

Let my Heart soar with happiness
Knowing I've done well, made a difference
Let me do special things from my Heart

Most of all ... keep me strong for my Husband
Help him through his illness to get better
Thank you, Lord, for letting him live

Each day he slowly gets better
I go forward even while I'm afraid
Lord, I'm standing once again ... please don't let Life knock me down

Note by this Author:

My husband, Skip, has been gravely ill.  He suffered a stroke, his heart almost stopped.  He has a pacemaker implanted now in his chest. He has diabetic neuropathy, diabetes.  He is a cancer survivor (colon cancer).  He won't be able to work again.

Our life has completely changed ... we've begun a new journey in our life ... we are facing the unknown.  I pray that as we go forward ... all will be good in the rest of our life.

Photos/my poem owned, written by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.


  1. I pray that things will start being good for you and Skip. I have always said that if God brings you to it-----He will bring you through it. He will do it in His time. I know it is hard but we have to keep our faith and be patient. I love you Gloria!! Love, Ms. Nancy

  2. God bless you both and your pups. I wish for you lots more years of love and happiness.