By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee
Afraid ... to become close to another person
Outside my private world ...
Pain ... the thought of losing yet another loved one
When for now, I only have my world I'm close to
Realizing life ... death is the way it is
You, I ... there's nothing we can do about it
Acceptance ... takes longer for some to reach
I reached it in four years after the death of my child
I had no choice in the matter
Either I accepted ... or I quit living, or ... slowly ... go crazy
Three choices I had ... I've always loved life
No matter that life has been hard for me at times
I chose to accept ... to live my life out
Why? Because, there is nothing I can do, say
To change a thing ... I can cry, scream, roll on the floor
It doesn't get me a damn thing ... I'm tired of being sad
I can be happy while ... I grieve for my son ... in a good way
He has done something ... we all have to do one day
Die ... we are born ... live life ... and whether we want to ... or not
We each are going to have to die ... no one can change this fact of life
How many times have I told myself these things in the past 4 years?
I can't remember ... I can't see back through the darkness I came through
How in the world ... did I make it back out to the light
Learn to smile again ... to feel the wind on my face?
Live life once again ... care?
How? My precious husband ... my hero ... made me strong
Strong enough to come back ... from the worse thing to happen in my life
I made it back through many 'bad' things ... this time, I wouldn't have if it hadn't been for ... him
My whole world left now ... is my husband, three Pups
Outside them ... I'm careful whom I become close to
I don't invite unwanted, extra pain
I only become ... so close ... to anyone today
I don't fool myself ... I know my Heart
It cares a lot, I just don't show it ... when I Love ... I Love
Photo/words are of, by me, owned by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka #Granny Gee
I can understand about not getting too close to anyone else! I am the same way! I hope and pray that you and Skip will still live a long healthy life for many more years to come. I know he is your very world! He is fortunate to have you also. He would never find anyone to love him and stand by him like you do. Love, Ms. Nancy
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