DURING THE MONTH OF MAY...
BY GLORIA FAYE BROWN BATES/ aka GRANNY GEE
Since Mother's Day my colors have been not been so bright
I've been so sad thinking about Tommy, my path is alittle darker now, with less light
I knew it would happen no matter how much I tried
May is the month of tears for me, the month I've cried
The most ever in my life, millions of tears for my son
Millions of tears for my only child, my only one
I'm like two people, a happy one for your eyes
I smile for you and tell you lies
So, you think I am doing just fine
So, I don't have to answer questions all the time
Let me be sad all I want, I won't bother you
In fact... I'll be happy while you are, too
The month of May is a very sad time for me
My brother died, later my son died in this month, you see
Imagine how painful this is to lose ones who mean so much
Oh my God, a brother and a son... the pain is such
That it weighs me down so low, darkens my path
making it hard for me to smile, or to laugh
But, I will smile and laugh when you see me
I promise not to make you sad or down, you'll see
Here, where I write is my only place to tell you
About how sad I am, how I really feel.. too
You choose to read if you want to know
That way I don't push my feelings on you, so
When you read... it'll be alright
Because I'm here.. not around you in sight
For you to see me and feel you have to comfort me
Distance here is important... so, it's alright to let me be
In time, I'll be alright, in time I'll smile a real smile
For now, especially this month... I'm grieving so much for my only child
You don't have to worry, I won't bother you
Here.. where I write, you are here because you chose to
Here.. is my private place, also... public, this is where I write
Here is my place where I'm out of sight
When you come here, it's because you want to
That way I'm not pushing... myself on ... you
Just know that I'm glad you chose to be here
I'm so thankful... you all are so near
It means the world to me
I don't feel so alone, you see
With Skip, and our Pups ... and everyone
I can make it while I grieve for my ...son
I can make it while I grieve for my brother, and... son
During the month of May... for my loved ones
