Lord, I'm Standing Up Again ...

Lord, I'm Standing Up Again ...
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter

Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

The waves are battering me again trying to break me apart
I'm tossed, thrown on the sea to sink ... only to rise
I tighten up ... another Life's storm comes for me


The wind ... darkness ... all vicious in its might
Try to destroy me ... sink me to the pits of the unknown
I'm afraid ... I pray for help ... in the meantime I don't give up


I hold my ground ... stand up straight ... I focus ahead
My hands brush the sand off my ass from where I fell
Life just threw me down once again


Stay down ... stay down this time, Life roars at me
Hell no!  I try to rise, being pushed down the whole time
Tears flow down my cheeks ... anger, pain soar through my mind, body


I'm not staying down even if I have to crawl
I'm like the redwood tree ... scarred from many battles
I've stood through the years beaten, worn


I'm broken, beaten ... not pretty to look at anymore
Doesn't matter ... all I worry about now
Is to survive ... live until I die


My way has been hard ... never easy
Each road I've taken has lead to pain
In my old age I would love to know peace, comfort


Know how it feels not to suffer physically, have mental pain
Be able to smile and not hide anything ... smile because
For once everything really is alright


Grow old gracefully ... feeling joy in my Heart
Having enough so, I can share
Doing good things for others in need


The wind has been knocked out of me
The love of my life almost died
I almost lost another part of my whole world


Oh God, I cried ... please don't take him away
He's all I have ... my Husband, our two Pups
They make up my whole world


You took my son, my only child
I've never questioned why
I learned to accept I'll never see him again


I never hated you, God
I never cursed you, screamed at you for taking him away
I cried, stayed in darkness ... I just couldn't bear losing my son


You took every member of my family away
All the ones I truly loved ... now, they are gone
All I have left is my whole world


Please let us have many good years
Good years where we can live in peace, not know more pain
Let us experience true happiness ... instead of sadness


Lord, I am standing up once again
Please don't let Life knock me down again
Give me a chance to know peace, happiness while I live


Please let a miracle come into my Life
Let me have a chance to do good things I've wished to do
There are people I want to help, bring some joy into their life


Please give me the chance to experience joy
Joy of being able to have in order to give
Let me be a part of that wonderful feeling


Let my Heart soar with happiness
Knowing I've done well, made a difference
Let me do special things from my Heart


Most of all ... keep me strong for my Husband
Help him through his illness to get better
Thank you, Lord, for letting him live


Each day he slowly gets better
I go forward even while I'm afraid
Lord, I'm standing once again ... please don't let Life knock me down








Note by this Author:


My husband, Skip, has been gravely ill.  He suffered a stroke, his heart almost stopped.  He has a pacemaker implanted now in his chest. He has diabetic neuropathy, diabetes.  He is a cancer survivor (colon cancer).  He won't be able to work again.


Our life has completely changed ... we've begun a new journey in our life ... we are facing the unknown.  I pray that as we go forward ... all will be good in the rest of our life.


Photos/my poem owned, written by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.

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The State Fair is Here!

The State Fair is Here!
By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny on Twitter

Laughter, giggling ... squeals of delight
Carnival sounds ... hit the balloon with the dart!
Rides going round and round ... music blaring



Nip in the air making all foods cooking smell good
Give me a sausage dog with onions, peppers please!
It's here again ... the State Fair is here again



Exhibits, cars doing tricks, animals too
Colorful lights ... big shows, bands playing, dancing
Thousands of smiling faces, hearts full of joy



The State Fair is here!  The State Fair is here!
I think I'll have a funnel cake too
Corn on the Cob, big Turkey Legs, Fried Pickles



Children being measured for rides
To keep them safe from falling off
Ice Cream cones dripping down their arms



Pigs racing ... the biggest alligator ... shortest woman
Homemade fudge ... pies, cakes too!
Cooking contests ... judges getting to taste all



The State Fair is here!  The State Fair is here!
Thousands of people going to have some fun
Get their favorite foods they craved all year!





Note by this Author:



The State Fair is here ... I wish I could be there.  I've had an accident that fractured my knee cap that may prevent me from going.

I was looking forward ... excited waiting for this time of year to do Fall things.  Sometimes ... life gives us a twist, a turn ... we go in a different direction.  For now, I take one thing at a time.

Photo/poem owned, written by me.  Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

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You Know How It Is... Warm Happy Colors

You Know How It Is.... Warm Happy Colors

By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee

Today is going to be more beautiful here ... than yesterday!  Oh my, it's going to be a beautiful day!  Yesterday was absolutely ... lovely!

I saw leaves on trees that have already turned red, orange, yellow, green.  They are warm, happy colors... the colors of a happy fireplace burning... the flames merrily flickering, popping from happiness as they burn the wood below.

We don't have a fireplace here where we moved... but, we do have 'the next best thing'.  It's a heater that has a 'fireplace' inside!  I can turn it on... and the fire 'burns inside'... it's so realistic!

Last year we had it turned on for the atmosphere, and the soft heat that blew out from beneath (it's electric).  A friend of ours, Stephen, came to help us figure out how to use the DVD player that Tommy gave us the Christmas before he died.  We told him to be careful not to get burned when he stepped near it.

We laughed when he thought the 'fireplace' heater was hot and would burn one.  It doesn't get hot at all, ha!  It 'just looks like it would!'

He thought it was real... of course, we were pleased.  We thought it looked real, too.  It's even better when someone else acknowledges it... so, you know how 'it looks to others!'

It's time to take the 'fireplace' out of storage (in my artroom!), to 'light the fire' (plug it in, turn it on!  :))).  I'm looking forward to standing in front of it to warm my bare toes as the warm air circulates below.... cosy!

You know how it is.... fall time is really here.  It's time to do cosy, happy things... see happy colors of 'warmth'!  Red, yellow, orange, brown, green, gold.......