By Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee/@GeeGranny
Eyes closed, head pressed against my hands
Cold fingers caress my forehead
Emotion wells up inside my Heart
I hear the cold wind blowing, wind chimes ringing
I feel afraid ... why? I feel so small in this big world
Tears flow down my cheeks ... clouds squeezing out raindrops
Why am I crying ... why am I afraid ... sad?
Death is walking near ... I feel him ever so often
I pray with my Heart for him to go away
Please don't touch my world anymore
You've taken everyone who meant the world to me
Please go away ... I need what I have left
So, I can live, not be alone in this big, cold world
Sitting here, I wring my hands ... I hear my dog howl
From the bedroom down the hall ... did he sense something
Did he feel Death was walking close to us?
I pray my Lord to keep us safe, sound
Please don't let Death enter my world ... they're all I have
I have my husband, our two Pups
I sit here with my head in my hands
I'm crying deep down in my soul ... am I grieving
For my son ... or am I just sad ... why am I crying
Crying as my thoughts go through the walls to outside
To ride on the wind as they blow the wind chimes
They ring as I look about me ... in the night
In the night light ... trees sway ... it's so cold
Is Death coming for me ... is that why I'm afraid
Why I'm sad ... why I cry ... do I sense something
Did my dog? I don't want to die either
I haven't finished my living yet ... I need more time
I find myself holding my hands to my Heart
My chin resting upon them ... my eyes closed
I have a sick sensation in the pit of my stomach
Why? I know everything will be all right
So ... why am I crying ... why am I sad, feel so down?
I become aware of the chimes ringing louder
The wind is blowing harder
I get up to go look out my window
I relax as I stand looking out ... snowflakes!
The wind is blowing snowflakes from Heaven!
A smile comes to my lips ... inside my Heart
I feel Life soar inside me ... as Death goes away
Leaving me, my world alone for another time
I thank God from my Heart ... for now, I'm not alone
Note by this Author:
I woke up at 2:00 am this morning, couldn't go back to sleep. Thoughts of things that slightly upset me were on my mind. I can't seem to shake them ... make them go away.
I couldn't lay in bed with such turmoil going on inside me ... it was like a boat trying to float under water. I just couldn't do it. I know you've had those times when you couldn't just lay in a bed with so much going on in your mind.
I got up, came to my computer, began to write to make my sadness, yes ... even some anger, fears go away. I've written many words this morning to put distance between me ... what makes me upset, afraid.
I still have a sick sensation in the pit of my stomach ... I must have more words to write to make it go away.
Thoughts, photo written, owned by me ... Gloria Faye Brown Bates/aka Granny Gee.+
Sometimes the only way to figure things out is to write them out. Maybe we all do that from time to time. Good thing writing helps us at certain times. Maybe that is how some authors got started and then they keep on writing.I think you are a great writer/author! You keep writing and we your fans will keep reading! Love, Ms. Nancy
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